Is This The way it Feels When You Are About to Die?

I’m referred to as Alex Higenyi,  a senior six chief at Butalejja SS in Butalejja district. I’m scripting this letter from my sick mattress right here at Mulago Nationwide Referral Hospital. I’m not certain how lengthy I will reside to inform my story since each breath from my lungs is a bonus now. Right here is my story;

I’ve lived for twenty-four years however the final month has been probably the most educative time in my life. Simply two, or three months in the past, I used to be dreaming of turning into the very best Engineer within the nation and maybe the primary in my household. I didn’t know God deliberate in any other case.

I used to be recognized with a coronary heart downside again in 2019. Being one from a not so nicely to do household, I selected to let “God’s shall be accomplished”, usually settling for native herbs to handle the occasional ache.

I went on with my research nicely realizing I wanted to pay attention if in any respect I used to be to turn out to be the Engineer I’ve all the time dreamed of being. However issues a sizzling robust after my senior six exams. I used to be merely more often than not, usually discovering myself out and in of hospital till I used to be confined right here for the final month. I’ve obtained a variety of love from totally different folks. Folks I didn’t know exist. Folks I didn’t know cared about me. I’m very grateful for the love certainly.

However I nonetheless really feel hopeless. I’ve many occasions felt alone. I’ve felt the load of being a burden to others particularly when I’ve no hope of see g the sunshine the next day.

I worry demise. I don’t need to die however I’ve out of the blue discovered myself being courted by the largest worry of my life on a regular basis.

I’ve heard demise whisper in my ears, ” Come on lad, I’ll by no means depart you alone.” Hello bro, I’m now all you’ve gotten let’s chill!”

I’ve slept with demise, I’ve eaten with demise, I’ve performed with demise and I’ve lastly gotten used to the sensation of belonging to demise. I’m apprehensive.

I want somebody on the market to inform me I’m not going to die. I would like somebody on the market to inform me they’re along with me on this. I want somebody to wish for me and search energy from God to face up to the ache and the loneliness.

Tomorrow, I shall be going to the theatre to be operated on however I’m scared. Many individuals have harvested life from theatres however I do know my state of affairs is kind of advanced. However I’m trusting God to make use of the Docs nicely. I solely want somebody to consider with me that I’ll come out alive. I don’t need to die.

Is that this the way it feels if you end up about to die?

Alex Higenyi is a Senior Six leaver from the Butaleja district. Our reporter visited him at his hospital mattress in Mulago Hospital and he wrote that message along with his fingers. He’s at present within the ICU after a really advanced operation. His household is, nevertheless, caught with a invoice that’s choking them. They’re interesting for any help to pay the invoice that at present stands at 19 million Ugx having managed to clear 4 million out of the required 23 million.

Higenyi with family and friends at his sickbed final week

Mr Lyada Moses, former Bunyole West MP contestant who’s spearheading a fundraising marketing campaign for Higenyi says they’ve an extra value of paying for the hospital mattress which he says at present stands at over 7 million shillings for the one month and a half the affected person has been in Mulago.

Butalejja Girl MP Florence Nebande has additionally tried to help the affected person and prolonged 500,000 shillings in direction of the trigger.

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